30 hari mencari cinta?

morning peeps..

today is my offday..
aku ni pelik ok kalo keja kemain malas tol nak bgn..cuba kalo offday, pukul 730 dah bgn.
then terus ke depan tv..
cam pagi ni bgn2 bukak HBO layan cita alive then kol 9 layan oprah jap..
pastu online..

today is 2nd dec oredi.
rasa cam cepaaaaat sangat masa berlalu kan..
we r almost at the end of the yr now.
and in 7months time i'll turn 27.

i went to watch new moon w sue n nieza last nite n otw back we were talking about our future plans..bla bla yada yada..bila nak kawen bla bla kan..
then i came up w the idea..
"30 hari mencari cinta!"
mok sikkkk tak org?
then we went laughing as hell..

sbb ada 30hari lagi b4 we celebrate the new yr..
and declare mesti pada 1hb january..
boleh?ada beraaannnnnnniiiiiiiiii kaaaaaaaaaa?
mana nak carik cinta dlm masa 30 hari je kan?
aku ni dah masok thn baru pun x jmpa2 apatah lagi in 30days time?

i doubt dat i can meet someone dat fast.
tapi kan ada org tu cam senang2 jek jmpa, kenal n tunang in 1 month time.
as for me kalo nak kawen ni i'll think wisely, kenal hati budi dulu..
kenal family..adik kakak dia camana.
my preference is i wanna meet someone who can accept me as i am..
kelebihan, kekurangan biarlah dterima seadanya..
i m not a good cook, im fat, im not dat pretty, so can u accept dat?

i have a story to tell u peeps..
i have been in love w this guy since i was younger..
we've been in love..
and we parted and we r now friends.

penah tak korang sayang org sampai u dont care his status is?
in my case, he's in a relationship now and will get engaged sometime nxt yr.
i dont mind about dat.seriously.
but what breaks my heart to pieces is dat he's not happy w her.
he keeps on complaining about how monsterous his gf is but still he's ON w the engagement plan..
he once told me "im afraid it its too late"
and i answer "its not too late for u to choose someone else.its not dat ure going to get married tomorrow!"

for me, men should be firm on what they want in life.
in a relationship wise especially..
if u dont like and dont even wish to marry dat girl, whats d point for u to agree to be her fiance?
its like giving hopes to d other party.
she loves u so much i know dat..
but is dat feeling mutual between u two?

its not dat i wish u'll leave her n come back to me, NO!
i know u wont do dat rite?
so try accepting who she is..
if she's not the right one, leave n dont ever turn back.
she also has dreams to achieve, future to look forward..

in my opinion, kalau i tau org yg i syg x suka ngan i, better tinggalkan sahaja dari mendera perasaan sendiri.
cinta bukan paksaan.
i prefer org tu yg sayang i lebeh dari i syg dia..
sbb to me lelaki sayang dan kasihnya mesti melebihi apa yg kita rasa pada dia.
bukan kita jek yg sayang gila2 tp dia buat dekkk jek..
n dats y rasanya dlm thn 2009 ni i x jmpa pun sapa2 lagi berkenan d hati..
choosy?yes i guess.i am a choosy person.
pengakuan dari hati suci murni.

pagi2 dah cinta kisah cinta eh?
well just want to look back what i want in life.
a mutual love dat is :)

we'll see whether i can find it in 30days! ;P