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Jika harusku bersabar dengan segala derita
'Ku terima
Jika pahitnya terasa
Bagai dipenjara tanpa
Bicara 'ku rela

Cinta akan 'ku mengasihimu
Sehingga nadiku tiada lagi berlagu

Andai rembulan tidak lagi mampu bercahaya
Terangilah gelapku walau dalam gelita
Dengarkanlah aku
Jiwaku tulus untukmu

Jika harusku bersabar dengan segala derita
'Ku terima
Jika pahitnya terasa
Bagai dipenjara tanpa
Bicara 'ku rela

Cinta akan 'ku mengasihimu
Sehingga nadiku tiada lagi berlagu

Andai rembulan tidak lagi mampu bercahaya
Terangilah gelapku walau dalam gelita
Dengarkanlah aku
Jiwa 'ku tulus untukmu

'Ku harap kau mendengar apa yang
'Ku bisikan…

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this is my favourite song at the moment

repeat mode manjang hahaha

kalau pegi keja ke balik keja ke tak pasang lagu ni tak sah uols

theres controversy behind this song's lyrics i heard

ada berkaitan dengan ex girlfriend si naim ni

tapi idk the details of it

i kalau gosip2 ni i malas layan

janji lagu ni best

kalau masuk final AJL, i nak pegi tk live next year! hahaha

im so single kan sampai dengar lagu camni i will be blank

tak tauuu nak imagine kan muka sapa

i dont even have a crush

i rasa kan, im not that lucky in relationship department i guess

kalau u dah lama baca my blog u will notice that i was a late bride

i was married at 31 after 10 relationships

dah kawen pun tak lasting, omg

i thought it was the lucky number ten! haha

banyak betul ranjau, duka lara, ujian for me to endure

but who i am to complain on whats Allah has destined for me?

i shouldnt question because i believe what i am facing now will bring me to a huge happiness that i might never imagine will be having

gitu.

mana la tau kan 

kuasa Allah is beyond our thinking

kalau Dia nak amik, sekelip mata je

camtu la jugak kalau Dia nak memberi, sampai tak sangka sangka rezeki sebegitu rupa yg bakal dtg

so for now im just enjoying my time, my peaceful single moment hehe

eh apeni cerita pasal lirik lagu melalut sampai cerita pasal takdir hidup plak haha

oklah till then orait!

xoxo

7 July 2019

7 July 2019,
im turning 36 years old, single, happy and content
so far my life is tenang walaupun tiada cinta but i know i loved by many
my notifications was flooded with bday wishes, im so touched hehe
thanks for all the wishes.
semoga apa yg didoakan kepada i, akan dimakbulkan. amin :)

on my birthday, my bestfriend; castro asked me out for movie and dinner
we went to GSC, IOI City Mall for toys story 4 using my free tickets (redeem bday)

abis wayang dah 10pm, IOI pun dah tutup so castro ajak pegi KL instead
iols dengar word KL pun dah teruja because i got the chance to see KLCC!
hahaha
thats my fav building of all time !!
kalau uols dah happykan i, bawak je pegi klcc, i will be very very happy haha

the weather that night was so nice so calm but a bit panasss
sampai tu pun dah lambat so cepat2 la order sbb i pun dah lapaaa gile dah time

i ordered lamb chop (my fav!) and castro with beef cheesy fries ke apa nama tah
lepas tu still lapar order lagi korean chicken
sedap gilaaaa

this is our desserts, churros with choc dip
sedap jugak tapi masa ni dah kenyang gila so weols makan dlm keta otw back tu

thanks castro for making time for me
ure indeed a very bestfriend of mine and im really lucky to have u
gambar bday girl takde k hahaha

oklah till then!

huge suprise(s)

Last friday i received a huge suprise
or should i say suprises?
:D

i was just came back from jualan jumaat at my ofc
masa jualan tu nampak la ada stall jual cakes and i was like "sedapnya kek tuuuu"
and window shopping la kat bawah tu tak beli apa pun just cuci mata :)

and then bila naik ofc, i saw two boxes on my table and i was sooo shocked haha
eh what is thisss people??? sape bagi niiiiiiiiiiiiiii i said and semua kat ofc tu tak ngaku ehhh
eee geram je
nak kata i ada peminat, mana mungkin kot eh mana lah tau eh takdeee kot haha

look at how yummy these cakes look :)

one pavlova and nother one is blueberry cheese

and then later i got msges from two people
pavlova is from izyan and the other cake is from mizi
both are my colleagues

awhhhh im so touched and feel so blessed :)
the cakes are so yummmm siap potong lepas tu and shared with others

hehe my birthday came early la kira
sbb friday dah celebrate potong kek :D

thanks guysss!
sayang korang sangat2 :)

my happy face hihi.
im wearing my new specs sempena raya aritu
nampak lain kan?
and i love it!

till next update yawlsss

p/s: feeling better now no more heartaches dah. im okay :)

Rejections

Hi dear readers!

its been a while, dah abis pun raya now dah masuk zulkaedah
next month dah raya haji pulak

emmm actually i wanted to share something here
i am back to dating world again
tak salah kan since im no longer anyone's wife now hahaha
its been nearly 9months since we decided to go part ways

early this year till recently, i went out with few guys
some are my mutual friends, some are strangers turn friends
ada yang interested to know me better but i plak tak minat
ada yang i like so much but he didnt see me as his future

to look for someone new is tiring
really
i thought i dah pencen kot dlm phase mencari cinta ni
its been 6 years that ive been in love with him, been loyal with only one man
i never have any interest to look for anyone else since he was my world
no matter how rocky our marriage was at the end of it
but jodoh adalah rahsia Allah
who would have known that last year i celebrated my birthday with him
and this year we didnt even wish each others birthday?
life sometime can be so cruel but we never knew what waiting for us at the end of the tunnel

and here i am facing another rejections after another
but this one is so special
ive been so close with him these past few months
we went to movies, shopping, eating out till late together
just the two of us
ive known him so long, we love to sing together in the car
even he knew my fav songs and verses

hes so kind and nice to me till i discover that i feel something special on us
between us
i was in misery for weeks wondering whether he has the same feeling too
and so one of my friend asking him do we have something special happening?

he said no, theres nothing happened between us
its just a pure kindness
a pure sincerity as friends
never in his life or his mind to take me to the next level
never. he said so.

i was crushed to the pieces
i know i shouldnt develop this feeling at the very first place
its my own fault
but im a normal girl, i have feelings too
i cant hide it nor i can refused it
when someone is being so nice to us, we sometime took it as an interest
as more than friends
plus we both feels so comfortable with each other

and there he is, saying im no more than friends
never than that
please dont misunderstood his kindness as he said

so here i am typing out my frustration on my blog for everyone to see
its tiring.
i just want to love and be loved again
thats the purpose of being on this earth isnt it?
life means nothing without it.

i love being single but at the age of 36 (my bday is yesterday), i want to start new
i want someone new
i want to be wanted, desired and loved

but thats not easy baby.
yg i nak, tanak ngan i
yg i taknak, menunggu jawapan i

well life is never easy
but ive been through divorced, so this rejection means nothing isnt it?
it hurts a little la tipu la tak langsung

sokay i can move on now.

thank you, next!