what goes around, comes around

karma.as cliche as it sounds, msti ada yg caya n ada yg tak kan?
well, lemme share w u stories of mine, my own diary.

dlm thn 2001, i penah kapel w a very wonderful guy.
sangat2 wonderful sampai i penah terpk he wld be my husband after i cmpleted my studies.
as much as i love him, he also loves me sooo dearly.
btw, he's my 1st love n till now he's still the best even i dah kapel dekat 8 kali dgn org yg berbeza.
he's still the best.

till one day, bad things happen.
after 2 yrs, ujian dtg jua..
he left me for another girl.
yg mana, she's my own collegemate jugak.
since dah 2thn ramai yg tau we all kapel.
even lecturer pun kenal we all.

n this lady yg jd gf baru to my ex buat2 bodoh cam tak tau.
i was devastated, menangis x igt sampai bengkak biji mata.
tiap mlm dengar lagu soledad thru my discman sampai tetido.
mkn tanak, apa pun tanak.
nak g kolej pun cam takut.takut terserempak dgn dorang berdua.
even g library pun tak..
dat was the toughest phase of my life.
sib baik tgal 1 more yr to cmplete my dip..

but i was strong outside la.nmpak je hepi but sampai bilik amik bntal then cried to sleep.
haih mmg sedeh gila la..

until one day.

i wanted to talk to my ex bf new gf..
ckp secara pro.xde ngamok2 ke hapa..
so she did come to my room dat particular nite.
and we talked.
and i asked "y u sanggup buat camni kat i?u tau kan he's my bf?"
then she said "kalo i je nak, takkan benda ni jadi"
geram okkk..dah sah2 tau i kapel w dat guy lagi nak menggatal.
but its ok..i saba jek w her damn cruel answer.
and i said "xpe.i boleh accept.bnda dah jd pun..tp i nak let u know,one day u will feel exactly how i feel, even worse.you'll see"
she just nodded n went out frm my room.

dats our last talk.

i did see her laughing n giggling manja2 tunjuk kat i kat kolej.
but i dont care.
even to my ex, wpun i sayang nak mati but i knw, ada sebab Tuhan x pjgkan jodoh.

last i jmpa those lovebirds pun masa knvo thn 2004.
i nak salam my ex, dia lari g hadap gf dia.
dia ingat i nak guna2 kan dia guna ilmu sarawak kot,hahah..
kalo nak lama dah i buat.buat anu dia terkeluar kat dahi.haha
ops melalut.

after 5 yrs, i heard those two dah broke up.
ni dari sumber yg sangat2 dpercayai.
dat girl nangis2 crita yg dia dah dtggalkan by my ex bf..
after 5 yrs people!
5 freaking yrs!
i really thot dat they at least tunang ke ape kan.
last2 hampeh x kemana..

im really sure, at this moment she'll remember what i told her last time.
"u will feel how i feel.even worse"
and u deserve it bitch! in ur face!
now ur turn plak rasa apa i rasa..
tp of course yg u rasa sekarang lagi hebat kan?yelah dah 5 yrs menyulam cinta!
hahah cintamu di mana sekarang?dah lari? ;P
kompom menangis berhari2 sampai mata xleh bukak..
owh saya sangat hepiii.. =) =)
call me cruel but i deserve feeling this way..

to sapa2 yg penah hancurkan perasaan i, wait for ur turn.
hahha[evils laugh]

note to myself too, dont ever play w other ppl's feeling.
kalo dah x suka, ckp elok2, bincang n let go.
ada silap mana2 mintak maaf n kalo x xleh selamat lagi gudbye je la..
jgn putar belit, tipu2 n kelentong sana sini alih2 ada org lain..

remember,sesungguhnya balasan Tuhan itu pasti.