Saturday, July 25, 2009

i miss his presence..

i was looking at my pics albums at my friendster's acc.
and i stumbled at this photo.

ghani[d driver] me, juzz n jijie[d one w sunnies]
this pic taken at 2006 n we were heading to palm beach, sematan..
we were convoying w other frens as well and there we were..
looking so hepi n ...healthy..

d good old days

just so u know, jijie is my very good friend.
we always hang out together, lepak mcd, tgk wyg, g mkn2, sembang2 semua la..
but things have changed a lot.

at first, he was diagnosed w cancer; 2 yrs back.
after few chemos, his condition getting better and im so glad w his good response..

but last month..

he had a stroke and now he has lost his ability to walk..and talk.
he got brain damaged as well so now he doesnt has much memories w him..anymore..

its is sad to see jijie at dat hard situation, at a very young age.
he's now no longer working..
its so painful to accept the truth dat he'll never be able to walk again.
in fact, he couldnt join us to KK last month bcos of his weak condition..
he supposed to go cos he already bought the ticket ealier in march..
=(

Gosh, im crying while im typing this cos i miss his presence during all the gatherings, outings..

i miss to talk to him like we used to..
i miss the way he makes jokes around us n his laugh too..
i miss to send him home after watching movies..
i miss him as my good friend.
yes, i miss him a lot..

i know its hard for everyone of us[his friends] to accept but we should never loose hopes..

i m now trying to visit him regularly..
giving supports is the least dat i can do..
and yesterday he looked good but he lost so much weight..

to jijie, be strong ok..
i know u can get through this..

setiap yg berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya..

32 comments:

AmirFX said...

Wow... Dasat juak ehh... SIk sangka juak dlm usia muda kedak ya buleh kenak mcm2 penyakit... Semoga kawan ktk tabah menghadapi dugaan Yang MAha Esa.. Amin...

Lois Lane said...

I hope he gets well too...I dun know him as well as u do Za but I pray that he'll get better soon.

He's young...he has his whole life in front of him...if ko yg kwn rapatnya pun dah sedih can u imagine what his family feels?what his parents feel?

be strong for him, ok?have faith

SEN said...

sedih kmk dgr..apabila kita dlm keadaan yg sentiasa gembira, bebas ke sana kemari, ada di antara kita yg sik bernasib bait..mudah2an nya tabah dan kita doakan jak agarnya dapat pulih seperti sedia kala..

JT said...

erm.. salam...
paham juak kmk ngn keadaan kwn ktk koh..
i have some1 very2 close to me mcm ya. brain cancer. but he was lucky for not losing his ability to walk. just some memories.
he's a dear to me :D tp nya dah ninggal dah. baruk2 juak. few months back. and i miss his presence too.. treasure ur time with jijie k ?
surely u will not get it back later..
mcm kmk... after reading ur post. seriously i really miss him too..
thanx for reminding me :)
mek doakan kawan ktk insyaAllah sehat. asal hati kuat nak ow.. kwn kmk di sahkan kanser long time ago.. more than 5 years. doc said nya able to live the longest one year. but he manage more :) terpulang dgn semangat sorang2 jak gk.. and people surrounding them

Ivy Metaga said...

kesian kawan ktk ya, muda2 lagi...moga dia akan tabah...

n i e z a said...

jaik ati mek nangga gambar ya. i miss him too. :(

green apple said...

i feel you..

Caynie De said...

i feel wat u felt now..mine is much more harder..

IsBoY'z ZeA said...

embak bersabar jak byk2 k. tuhan sik akan menduga umatnya yg x mampu bah... ada hikmah semua ya. maybe tuhan lebih syg kan nya dr kita semua that why nya berik dugaan ya dgn kwn ktk za...
but kmk doa n harap kwn ktk akan sembuh soon. amin....................

Felicia F. Ramzi said...

kelak kamek datang kuching kamek ngabas.. jeez, terkenang masa zaman sekolah marek, jijie ngan midon antara geng balit prep dengan mek duak sarah..pa kamek jadi orang tengah jijie merik surat ngan gerek. last nemu jijie last yr time g uitm and nya datang mbak kamek duak khay ke sematan [pi mek duak sik pergi].. tedah eh..pilu ati ngenang kawan dirik mpun jadi mcm ya..omg..Tuhan selamatkanlah Jijie

Titil said...

Bersabar jak k. Sik mustahil dengan teknologi perubatan nektok dengan berkat doa ngan usaha, kawan kitak ya dapat sembuh.

f.i.e.z.a said...

amirfx,
amin amin..doa jak mek dapat amir..

f.i.e.z.a said...

lois lane,
his parents jgn cita la leona.nang berabis k jijie.apa2 jak cara mok ngubat, they'll try.
i m strong for him..bila ngabas nya semua mek org hepi xmok sedeh2 ngganya wpun dlm ati Tuhan jak tauk..

f.i.e.z.a said...

sen,
yalah bila mek org geng kumpol pengilan ka, holiday trip ka nang ngenang nya koh..jaik ati.
doa jak la oo..

f.i.e.z.a said...

jt,
yalah..mek org will never loose hopes.doa ya nang sik putus2 la.bila nya masok speta mmg akan nebes nyawa mek org koh..
ada one time nya kenak sawan, semua mek org betahan tangis xmok nya tauk mek org sedeh.
nang jaik ati ko tp mek tauk nya kuat..insyaAllah one day nya akan sehat cam biasa.

f.i.e.z.a said...

ivy,
yalah ko..mudahan nya tabah..

f.i.e.z.a said...

nieza,
yalah za..jaik ati.time ya nya maseh suk2 main aek ngan mek org bah..mudahan nya cepat sehat.

f.i.e.z.a said...

grren apple,
thanks..

f.i.e.z.a said...

caynie de,
semua ya dugaan..

f.i.e.z.a said...

zea,
semua ada hikmah..insy one day everything will be fine..

f.i.e.z.a said...

felicia,
lak tak dtg kita ngabas nya k..kmk pas sekolah bok close ngannya.camacam jak cerita mun nya ada..
nang piluk ati ngganya.sik sangka jd camya..tp kita mesti positif.
mintak2 semua akan selamat.amin.

f.i.e.z.a said...

titil,
yalah.mintak2 la oo..usaha jak kan..tp familynya nang mek salute ko..kin adiknya jaga jijie ya nang gigih..sayuk ati ngga nya d sapik mkn pasya adik nya nangis.mek org mana ngga nangis juak..
its hurtful to accept.

::suenas05:: said...

mun kmk ngabas gerenti kmk nangis tok..ya kmk lemah nak ngabas org sakit. p mun ktk ngabas lak embak mek juak.

juzz said...

jaik ati ngga gamba ta 4 lam ya eh..sik sangka jijie jd camya oo.;(

am-rie said...

sedihla dengar..lagi2 kawan rapat o..
susah nak terima, tapi kena redha n berdoa jakla..mesti ada hikmah disebaliknya...
senang untuk dicakap, tapi arkh..
susah..

Ashoda said...

sorry to hear bout your friend....kita doakan dia supaya cepat sembuh....

dukunlintah plk said...

semoga tabah yg sakit dan yg berada d sekeliling.. sihat merupakan satu ujian.. sakit jugs merupakan satu ujian.. dengan redha dan bersabar, maka sakit adalah salah satu cara penghapusan dosa.. insyaAllah

f.i.e.z.a said...

suenas,
k lak ta ngabas nya aa..ko boh nangis indah.he's ok btw..

f.i.e.z.a said...

juzz,
kan?nei nok molah dah takdir camya nak.doa jak nya cepat bait dapat g pntei gik..hehe

f.i.e.z.a said...

am-rie,
yalah tek sng jak bunyi madah tp hakikatnya susah mok nerimak.redha jak la..ada reasons semua tok blaku.

f.i.e.z.a said...

ashoda,
sama2 la kita doa owh..ya jak kita mampu..

f.i.e.z.a said...

dukunlintah,
mena kata kitak.moga2 nya kuat n tabah..