Officially single.

yesterday was 30th December 2018

tamatlah sudah tempoh edah for me

alhamdulilah everything went well

i moved to my new place, living on my own

i learnt how to drive again, i stand on my own two feet

its not easy to be honest but ive to

usah ditanya apa yang jadi. semua dah ditakdirkan jodoh setakat itu sahaja

we tried to save our marriage but Allah is the best planner

we decided to stay friends no matter what happened

sedih? yes of course i sedih. tipu tak sedih

the first month was the hardest. i cried to sleep most of my nights

i slept alone. i did everything alone.

i was lost the first few days.

i cried while i drove to the office, back home, i cried all the time

but no one knows, they thought i was strong.

we built the marriage together but at the end, we are strangers again

that hurts me to the core, my heart broke to pieces

i never thought that i will face this phase

divorced. being single again. far from home and family

but i have a strong support systems

i have good friends around me. i have family friends thats always there supporting me

masa pindah tu kak irda and fatin were there helping me

including my colleague, munirah

she even slept at my new place, siap memunggah barang dari kotak, susun sampai siap

bangun esoknya sambung lagi kemaskan rumah.

i dont know what would i do if i dont have them

from a three rooms condo to a studio apartment, a new transition for me

alhamdulilah it makes me a stronger person

im paying my bills on my own now 

paying my own rent, things ive never done before

im on my own.

pray for me okay.

im doing good so far alhamdulilah

ive no plan yet nak balik kuching

we'll see how it goes.

happy new year 2019 my readers. may this new year brings more happiness and joy into our lives

bye!