after 7 years

hye all

i just came back from a meet with a long lost friend
actually i met with my first love/bf or whatever u call it
last we all jumpa was in 2004 during convo diploma kat uitm shah alam
masa tu mmg we all memang dah takde pape dah
and dats it

i mmg nak jmpa him so badly again
i dont know why
maybe sbb i masih teringatkan dia
he has a very special spot in my heart
even till now
but doesnt mean i wanted him back
no
its just how to say eh sbb he's my 1st love
sampai bila2 pun i takkan lupa

kadang2 i said to my frens "how if i bump into him somewhere ke?"
siap kadang2 tu imagine "mana la tau dia dtg kch for kursus ke apa kan?"
so my friends said "a'ah eh..mana la tau"

i seriously wanted to see him so much it hurts sometimes
but i kept it to myself for few years

so since years past by mmg we all lost contact
then early this year i found his FB
tapi i tak buat apa pun
just look at his pic dats it

then last sunday was his bday
i beranikan diri hantar msg kat dia
ah lantak la kan ko nak pk apa
just a bday wish
then i got a reply
he said thanx and wish me selamat hr raya aidiladha semua
and thats it

suddenly semalam he told me dat he's coming to town
i was like whaaaaaaaaaaaatttt??
r u serious?
and then i tanya la for what n everything kan
rupanya ada keja
then he added my BB pin some more
lagi la gigih chatting sampai past midnite
macam2 we all share
pasal life, keja, semua2 la
i feel so surreal
eh betol ke ni kan?

tibalah hari ni plak
ptg tadi dia dah sampai kch
lepas dinner he told me he's free
so i amik dia kat hotel
and brought him to starbucks
by the time dia masok keta  je i was like is this for real?
this is not a dream kan?
i kept telling myself
u dont have any idea how i really really really wanted to see him again
i siap cakap kat dia its been years went by
after 7 freaking years, we met again :)

u faham tak rasa u really wanted something for so long
and suddenly without any clue God granted your wish
cam contoh u mmg teringin nak g disneyland
u mmg takde duit nak pegi tapi tetiba u menang trip to go there percuma siap dgn duit poket sekali
sampai la hasrat u n impian u nak g disneyland tu
aaaa
dats exactly how i feel right now!

we were at starbucks for a good two hours
talked like theres no one else there
he with his funny jokes kept making me laugh
and we shared so much stories sampai berebut2 nak cakap dulu
pasal our jobs, life, family, the dreams and so much more
i really appreciate the chance God has given me

alhamdulilah
Allah has finally makbulkan doa i
i nak jmpa dia sangat bkn la nak jdoh i dengan dia ke apa
i just want a closure
a happy one

we're happy with our lives now
tidak mungkin bersatu kembali sbb mmg bukan jodoh bersama
tapi memori, kenangan manis, jasa budi baik dia semua i akan ingat sampai bila2
been in a relationship with him like nearly 3 years
but fate didnt bring us together
and i redha with everything He had planned for us
semua ada hikmah
i happy dapat jumpa dia balik as friends
for old time sake kan

now hati i sangat lega
:)

oklah.tu jek
hopefully lepas jmpa dia ni makin cepat la jodoh i datang
sbb dia dah jmpa someone
hehe
dia siap doakan i cepat2 kawen
eh of course nak cepat sapa nak lambat2 kan

ok now i nak tido
tell u, Law of attraction really work wonders on me
dulu i nak blackberry, i dapat
i nak my car plate no bday i, i dapat
lepas tu i nak jmpa dia dari duluuuuuuuu lagi, pun dapat sbb i salu imagine we met
:)
jodoh je belom lagi
insyaAllah tak lama lagi la tu
hehe

till next entry!